Bottled-up Feelings

My struggle as a child was to be outspoken, to be an advocate, to be as confident as the other kids. I used to be an extreme introvert. It’s not what I wanted initially. I wished that I’m like the other kids; able to freely communicate their minds like a wind flowing swiftly from their lips. I was reluctant to say a lot of things with the fear of saying the wrong things. All these thoughts in my head I knew it made sense but I had to bottle it up simply because I was an introvert. As I grow up, the world taught me to be expressive but you also must be smart. Say things that are necessary, they say. Tell adults what they want to hear. Listen to what society dictates me. All these I struggled to do because the child in me wanted something different. I want to be the voice my heart and my mind wants. And as I grow up, I learned to let go of these feelings. And so these were all contained in a bottle, and I’m letting it flow and swim through the tides of the ocean. Until we meet again…